30th August 2004,
Went to dad's office today, helping brother to shift things. Heart broken seeing so much memories and flash back of the scene. Daddy, are you okay there? I miss you so much. Can't control the tears, it just roll down my cheek, like little babby crying for daddy's hugs.
Has been almost a year living without dad. Mum stay home, as usual, busy and filled up with all the house chores, those unnecessary house chores. Can't bother much of things around. Am so worried, how to take care of mum. If I went back Penang, how she coping alone? She's so clumsy, really clumsy, like a little kids..can't let her make any decision.
Will be back Penang tomorrow, need to start shifting my stuff to new apartment, cleaning and do the necessary so that can take mum hme fast. Brother still worried about the shop. How to help him? Can't bother much, don't know wht to do, just a prayer,
"God, I need You to work through this time of needs, flex Your muscle again Lord. Let me see you work. Increase my faith. Where can I place my faith again Lord? I am scare and tired and weary, I need you to work, in my heart, my faith and trust. Pls, don't let me stop believing you. Work in us, perform miracle Lord!"
